Time to settle in and trust God in bold and unforseen ways. There's a quiet in my house and it can either drive me mad or strengthen my resolve. Thoughts of what I've left continue to tempt me to doubt and struggle to move forward. "It's just so weird! It feels wrong!! Why did I have to leave!? Why did God make me do this?? Is this really the only way?"
It is, and I must wait. I start graduate school mid-Jan. I'll be seeing friends soon. But I am exhausted and trying to get into a routine. Please God, help the absence of the blissful craziness that was 24/7 varsity ministry settle me into a quietness with You! I'm reading a book about William Wilberforce, a "forceful" politician in England over 100 yrs ago. When was his mind trained towards Christ? When his theology was cemented in the quiet discipline of his heart. I want to walk in that obedience now - ready to obey, ready to step out in the way I always somehow have - in this wildly different set of circumstances.
I joyfully made milktart today, but was sorely disappointed at the results - it just didn't taste right. I think it's due to the new altitude and the fact that I used skim milk. Oh well - it wasn't that far off!
The weather has been rainy, dreary, and cold - but i'm looking forward to tomorrow - a trip the art museum (check it out! http://www.philamuseum.org/) to see ancient Christian religious art from the conquest age (think: the movie, "The Mission").
I miss you all in South Africa dearly, it's really difficult, but I am so grateful for each one of you!! This is my prayer for you- Philippians 1:27
